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We will be okay

It's that's time of year. The end of the school year and the anticipation of Christmas. Many moments for the kids and I to deeply feel Mick's absence. Mick wasn't with me at the school presentation assembly today to watch our son collect two awards associated with the coding program. He never got to go... Continue Reading →

What could have been and what is

I think about what could have been if it wasn't for brain cancer. Where would we be? How would we as a couple have fared? How would our relationship have grown and deepened? What do I miss? It is easier to think about all the things I dont miss. Smelly feet. Sweaty unwashed gym gear.... Continue Reading →

Every day – The light and the dark

This quote is beautiful. It resonates with me. Every day. I talk about him, not because I'm constantly living in pain. I'm not anymore, but in my world, this is my normal, and I'd rather live honestly and out loud.  Joy, love, happiness, and gratefulness are my everyday, but so are death, loss, heartache, and... Continue Reading →

Finding our way through Father’s Day

I often feel sadness, anger and loss most intensely in the lead up to an anniversary or a day like Father's Day rather than on the day itself. On the day I hold my breath hoping that the children and I will be okay. Then on the days following - like today - I exhale... Continue Reading →

Choice and Creativity

Last week I was a member of a panel of six at an event hosted by Picaluna.  We discussed what funerals of the future and end of life care could be like. It was heartwarming to meet and spend time with people committed to and passionate about co-creating funerals within their communities so that individuals... Continue Reading →

Career to Carer

My priorities and identity shifted from career in my twenties to carer in my thirties. It was a significant and challenging adjustment. Career to carer. From two decades studying then achieving and progressing in the corporate world, to a decade of caring. Caring for my young children and caring for Mick with terminal brain cancer.... Continue Reading →

Forty Five

Last week the kids and I stopped by McDonald's for an extremely unhealthy lunch of french fries dipped in a caramel sundae. Yeurk! I shudder now thinking of all the sickening sugar, salt and fat. Yet at the time it was just the thing. The kids smiled with glee at the decadence and complete abandon of... Continue Reading →

Quietly acknowledging six years

The June long weekend marked six years since Mick died. Six years. Two thirds of our daughter's life. About the same percentage for our son. We didn't celebrate the anniversary but we did acknowledge it. Through conversations and quiet gatherings, we paused with family and friends to remember Mick, acknowledge our loss and that challenging... Continue Reading →

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