We will be okay

It's that's time of year. The end of the school year and the anticipation of Christmas. Many moments for the kids and I to deeply feel Mick's absence. Mick wasn't with me at the school presentation assembly today to watch our son collect two awards associated with the coding program. He never got to go... Continue Reading →

What could have been and what is

I think about what could have been if it wasn't for brain cancer. Where would we be? How would we as a couple have fared? How would our relationship have grown and deepened? What do I miss? It is easier to think about all the things I dont miss. Smelly feet. Sweaty unwashed gym gear.... Continue Reading →

Every day – The light and the dark

This quote is beautiful. It resonates with me. Every day. I talk about him, not because I'm constantly living in pain. I'm not anymore, but in my world, this is my normal, and I'd rather live honestly and out loud.  Joy, love, happiness, and gratefulness are my everyday, but so are death, loss, heartache, and... Continue Reading →

Finding our way through Father’s Day

I often feel sadness, anger and loss most intensely in the lead up to an anniversary or a day like Father's Day rather than on the day itself. On the day I hold my breath hoping that the children and I will be okay. Then on the days following - like today - I exhale... Continue Reading →

Forty Five

Last week the kids and I stopped by McDonald's for an extremely unhealthy lunch of french fries dipped in a caramel sundae. Yeurk! I shudder now thinking of all the sickening sugar, salt and fat. Yet at the time it was just the thing. The kids smiled with glee at the decadence and complete abandon of... Continue Reading →

Quietly acknowledging six years

The June long weekend marked six years since Mick died. Six years. Two thirds of our daughter's life. About the same percentage for our son. We didn't celebrate the anniversary but we did acknowledge it. Through conversations and quiet gatherings, we paused with family and friends to remember Mick, acknowledge our loss and that challenging... Continue Reading →

Doing death a little bit differently

The way that our community and culture plans and conducts funerals is beginning to change across Australia and globally.  There are exciting and interesting alternatives being offered. Instead of a traditional ceremony at a church or a crematorium, people are choosing to hold ceremonies and memorials in places such as parks, community halls, surf clubs,... Continue Reading →

Consolidation

I have been immersed in yet another period of transition and reflection hence it has been almost two months since my last post. Invigorated following a delightful summer, autumn has provided a fitting backdrop to consolidate and explore what next. It has been a grounding and uplifting time. I have nourished my roots and extended... Continue Reading →

A welcome rainbow

Early this evening I noticed that the conditions looked good for a rainbow. My kids were immersed in games so I told them I was just popping out to the street to see if I could spot one. They leapt to their feet to join me. We were excited to spy a skerrick. Was it... Continue Reading →

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