Clare Smart. Celebrant and Blogger: Life as a Brain Cancer Carer then Young Widow/Solo Parent
I often feel sadness, anger and loss most intensely in the lead up to an anniversary or a day like Father's Day rather than on the day itself. On the day I hold my breath hoping that the children and I will be okay. Then on the days following - like today - I exhale... Continue Reading →
Early this evening I noticed that the conditions looked good for a rainbow. My kids were immersed in games so I told them I was just popping out to the street to see if I could spot one. They leapt to their feet to join me. We were excited to spy a skerrick. Was it... Continue Reading →
A thank you letter to all my friends, old and new, near and far, who laugh with me and love me as I am. Dear friends Here I am. On the other side of great change. Each one of you has been a pillar of support. Steadfast. Offering unconditional, inspiring, heartening love. You've watched me or... Continue Reading →
Sometimes relationships don’t last. I parted ways with my boyfriend a few months ago. I will always be grateful for our time together. Grateful for everything I rediscovered and learnt about love, myself and the wonderful world. It was a ride full of fun, energy and adventures. For me and my children. I will date... Continue Reading →
Every December one of my yoga teachers reiterates my favourite Christmas greeting which is Peace, Joy and Love by guiding us through a version of a loving kindness meditation. The meditation involves practicing compassion and love to one's self and then mentally sending goodwill, kindness, and love to others by silently repeating a series of mantras. Following... Continue Reading →
If I'm not careful, I become a grinch at Christmas time. My emotions can get the better of me. I support myself and the kids using several strategies and traditions so that despite our loss we feel connected, loved, grateful and cheerful throughout the lead up to Christmas and on the day itself.
I experienced time travel yesterday. It was intense and life affirming. It happened while I was attending a reunion morning tea at the pre-school my son last attended in 2012. The same year that my late husband died from brain cancer. My son was four and half years old and his sister was three. Now... Continue Reading →
My number one priority is to find joy and play every day for myself and to share fun activities with my children. The more the better! It is essential to balance my grief and stay connected to life.
What have I gleaned from my experience of the loss of my late husband that can ground me as I now grieve for the more recent loss of my father?
Rainbows & Rollercoasters 